Josh Beckett hasn't pitched in a game since May 18, when he gave up five runs in under five innings to the New York Yankees. Now, seven weeks later, Josh Beckett has some regrets.
To start with, he wishes they hadn't even played that night, after an hour-long rain delay:
"It just pisses me off because I feel like we could have controlled it. We shouldn't have played that game. . .I'm getting ready, getting ready, getting ready and then we're stopped for 45 minutes. The field drains fine. The mound drains fine. But what happened with that clay is that it balls up and when it balls up that's when the slips happen."
That slip is what led to the back tightness that would cause Beckett to be pulled from the game in the fifth inning and sent to the disabled list. Amusingly, the Yankees would play the rest of the game under protest, saying the Red Sox had faked Beckett's injury to gain more warm up time for Manny Delcarmen.
Beckett's regrets continue into his rehab process, where he says his silence regarding his condition cost him valuable weeks:
"We had to take two weeks off. I don't think we would have been in that position if we... like I said, it was my fault for not speaking up," Beckett said. "I remember throwing [at Tropicana Field] one day and thinking there was no way I should be throwing. That's how we ended up with five weeks off because I wasn't smart enough to just say, 'This just isn't helping.' "
With Beckett set to begin his schedule of rehab starts this weekend, hopefully he'll soon be back in the majors with a chance to set things right. But for now, it's all about taking the next step, being cautious, and being open:
"We're still going one day at a time. We're not rushing this thing back. . .We didn't do the right thing, and that's partially my fault because I didn't speak up. I felt if I just kept getting through things then they would get better, but I only made things worse."